Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Some updates and more of things I don't have to say.

Allow me to exaggerate. The spirited, lively river of what one may have once approximated to the merest equivalent of creativity, has dried to a slow, muddy trickle. Not only am I unable to write, I am also unable to think. Contact with the human specie is so limited these days, that I'm almost glad for bank loan promotional calls. Long winding conversations with myself are no longer even marginally engrossing. The last 3 years have disappointed me, and now I disappoint myself. In my world, that's the lowest low of the rockiest rock-bottom. Occasional periods of acquiring a vegetative state are not uncommon, but this is a whole new level of under-performance. I have a million pressing matters to address, and all I'm doing is shutting myself in a room 24x7 and not thinking. In fact, I'm dedicatedly and assiduously not-doing a whole lot of things. Also, I expect my 6th semester results to be announced anytime between last week and next month. That mere fact has turned me into a bawling, jumpy ball of nerves. I do not exaggerate when I say that my life and sanity depend on it. I want to apologize to all the people whose calls I have not answered, comments, mails and messages I have not replied to, not wished on birthdays and anniversaries, not called back, offered flimsy excuses to avoid meeting, and in general, been very very awful to. I can't. Not at the moment. But one of those people who have been nice enough to surprise me with her calls and concern(and will read this, I'm sure), is the one I owe a major apology to. I will make things right. Please know that I mean to.

10 comments:

soin said...

ayeah take off girl.any where. infact just a direction and a limit in that direction. no destinations. works for me. four walls can do to you what four rotten souls cant do. same stuff for me waiting for my job call. free

JD said...

Aw man. I get you so completely, it is uncanny. Very, VERY uncanny.

Anushka said...

Virtual hug?

Priyanka Suresh Mehta said...

*tightest hug*

I typed and I used backspace. I cannot say more. I'll write to you, soon, when I can get a hold of my life again (It's hitting rock bottom)

Much love.

Tangled up in blue... said...

I think its therapeutic to just switch off from the world for a while and just cut yourself off from everything for a while, including thinking. And somehow that always tends to happen around when there's an exam result coming.

Dont worry too much about it, everyone's a bit bipolar!

mgeek said...

Hey, listen to Echoes by Pink Floyd (especially the second verse)...

Tangled up in blue... said...
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Tangled up in blue... said...

Hey, for when you return, I've tagged you! Come check! :)

Sherry Wasandi said...

@soin: Thanks for the advice. I'm sure, it would have been the most effective one. Sadly, the commitments I had at that moment did not allow me to follow through. Good advice, nevertheless.

@JD: Knack. :)

@Anushka: Thank you. Just so you know, I've been a silent prowler.

Sherry Wasandi said...

@Priyanka: It's too late for what I could have said, I'm afraid.

But then, even that is past.

@TUIB: Worked like a charm! :)

And thanks for the tag. I'll be following it up very soon.

@mgeek: I will. Thank you.